Wednesday

w4m

latey, i have been completely enthralled with craigslists "missed connections". its the most addicting thing i have ever come across since the whole "facebook" and "myspace" trend. for those of you who are completely confused right now, let me explain what im talking about.

craigslist "missed connections" is a webpage that allows people to try and find a person that they had a random encounter with during the day. for exapmple, there are some that simply just say:
subject: you were the girl in the red dress.

i ran into you at the market. we chatted in line about my fondness for twinkies. you told me you found me endearing, i find you intriguing. coffee sometime?

..and thats it! thats all there is to it. for those people lucky enough to get a reply, get to see the other side of it while there "missed connection" beams and excepts the date, or in some cases completely blows them off.

i took it upon myself to see if any of these were even real, and what better way to do that then to write my own. i sat myself down, made myself in-vision a potential encounter and i wrote. i spoke of this tall, dark and handsome muni man who completely mesmerized me and drew me into his spell all simply by walking past me. i went on and on telling myself "no one is going to believe this shit". two hours later i had gotten an email. 

the email was from a guy wondering if i had been on the n train. i told him i hadnt. the moment i sent the email i felt bad. i couldn't help but feel guilty for quite possibly getting this poor mans hopes up, and letting him think for a second that i was his dream girl.  i had gotten myself so enthralled with this entire situation that i began to check it almost everyday. picturing the people who they had written about, and all the people who go on everyday in hopes to find something written about them.

and then i was involved in my very own "missed connection". i was on my way to work one morning and i had sat myself down next to a cute boy, as i usually do. i hadnt paid much attention to him, but i had enough to recognize him when i ran into him again on my way back from work. here we were again, sitting next to each other on the same train going in the same direction, and saying the same thing; nothing. in my head i knew this needed to change. if this wasnt gods way of saying "hey! you guys need to talk to eachother!!" then i dont know what it is. so in my mind the whole train ride i was yelling "come on dude, dont be a pussy, just talk to me". right when i almost gave up he turns to me, and we have a conversation that goes:

"i saw you this morning, didnt i?" 
"haha yeah, you did" i say.
"funny how that works out"
"yeah, have a busy day?"
"ohh no not really, i went to a banquet. but look, i think i was meant to run into you again. i kept telling myself 'oh no i should just have one more glass of wine' because i had a feeling i should stay longer"

and then his phone rang. 

he didnt get my number. he didnt even get my name. and when we parted ways the first thing my mind went to was craigslist.

so what is it about this silly website that draws me in so intently?  had me obsessing over the whole thing make my personal experience happen? or had it been a complete coincidence?

well, whatever it is, he should have gotten my number.

Saturday

dear gogol bordello,

Thank you for getting bitches out of our hall. oh, and thank you for just being amazing.

love,
cassie

Friday

so i just woke up from one of the most scariest dreams in my life. i cant really explain it, but i basically woke up crying. i hate this feeling. its absolutely terrible. i feel as if i have no control whatsoever on my mood for the next couple of hours due to this vivid dream. not to mention, my eyes are all puffy now.

there was, however, a good part of the dream.  this part was about 2 seconds long and eugene was in it (except we werent having sex, so it kind of was a waste). oh well, i wont complain.

Thursday

fuckkk that.

fuck bars that dont let you in if you arent 21. there is no reason as to why i shouldnt be able to see my friend perform with our schools jazz choir if im younger than 21. maybe, you shouldnt book schooooool choirs, because OBVIOUSLY they are going to have audience members who arent "of age". 
okay, sorry. i had to vent.

ALSO. fuck creepy guys at bookstore who tell you you smell good, then insist on staring at you the whole time you are trying to peacefully shop around for books. i do not have a sign on me that says "PLEASE HIT ON ME" so dont do it.

thank you. 

fire drill?

when i get back from a wonderful lunch in west portal, i walk to my dorm only to find the entire school (well on campus housing, to be exact) has been evacuated for a...fire drill. really? when was it that i left high school exactly? sometimes i dont think ive left at all. with all of the 2 am "fire drills" we've had, im pretty sure we all understand how to evacuate a building.

this is why i cant be here any longer. this whole place reminds me of high school. i need to get away, i need to be on my own without people telling me what to do, girls being completely immature, and now well, fire drills. summer should come now.

Wednesday

take a chance, take your shoes off, dance in the rain.

ive realized, i have a place to write almost everywhere:

1. my life book i have started,which basically is a really intricate journal of my life, so i can write a lot and tape things in.
2. my green mini notebook, which is for everyday life. i write everything i hear, everything i think of, and everything i need to remember.
3. this computer. i have pages and pages of writing...mostly stuff i have never finished, and other stuff that just needed to be written down fast.

my point to all this is, i think i have finally found something i love to do. something i can see myself doing for pure enjoyment. this new found writing and my on going obsession for reading should be a good team for my current future. 

bring it on world.

i know what you are thinking...

so i know, i have a livejournal, but i thought i would try something new. livejournal has turned into " the website for my daily gossip" and i thought to myself, thats not what i want my personal thoughts shared on. i write this for me, its true, but i like when people read it and are able to just intake all the methods to my madness. my lifes about to change, i feel, and this is the perfect way to start a new.

so here it is. a new blog. real thoughts, just me.

welcome to my life.